♥Saturday, October 23, 2010
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
♥Thursday, October 21, 2010
its a very happy day, maybe from now on everyday will be a happy day
♥
it can be a very happy day, and it is (:
♥Tuesday, October 19, 2010
hey baby!
i understand the whole situation after this few days already.
i love you (:
i believe in myself
i decided to take back the string again, decide to trust you once more.
you know what i mean already, remember what i tell you.
love you.
♥Saturday, October 16, 2010
i hope there will be a better tomorrow.
i hope you will say something different tomorrow
i hope you will give me something different tomorrow
i hope you will hug me tomorrow
i hope you will kiss me tomorrow
i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow
i hope you will call me tomorrow
i hope you will meet me tomorrow
i hope you will make tomorrow a better day
but everyday it ende up with another dissappointment
everyday the disappointment get worse.
i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow,but you shows that even if you have the medicine you wont want to mend it.
because by name and by heart, you dont belongs to me
i dont have the qualities you want.
he can do everything better than me.
im a laughing stock.
whatever he can give i cant give.
he can treat you better
he can be more polite than me
he can provide you more than i can
he has a dick but i dont
he have the rights to have you but i dont
he can do everything better than me.
he can act like a clown and make you laugh every moment and i cant
he can let you bully till you happy but i cant
he can accompany you when you need him every moment but i cant.
he can wake up early for you but i cant
he can buy you best food ever but i cant
he can help you when you dont have something but i cant
he can make you get an MC. but i cant
he can make you skip school but i cant
he can make you blacklisted in school but i cant
he can make you look like a dumb ass but i cant
he can make you cry like fcuk but i cant
he can cover you from every trouble but i cant
♥Thursday, October 14, 2010
thanks to THAMM~~ sheenaa~~ THINK THINK THINK
when out to chinatown with jessica and shihui. OMG! have total fun, from charcoal laugh till Chinatown, from Chinatown laugh back to charcoal to get macaroons. and end up we get mixed up with time and never buy at discounted price =.=
shihui got a new name which is = xiao mao!
jessica got a new name which is = xiao hua!
and mine! i dont want to tell i shy k! although here very bright but never mind i shine all the time. whats with xiao mao peeing in her pants when laughing to our joke?
MUAHAHAHHA super funny DRANK KOI!! YEAH YIPEEE hazelnut taste nice tooo. enjoyed my whole fcuking day! <3>
when to meet a siao char bor too <3>
suppose to be happy to meet her, but hais sadding life, i ahve a sad life.
but still yah lah. see her i very happy. =) omg, <3>
choosing slippers for her <3>
choosing cake for her <3>
yeap nice slippers and cakes hope he enjoy.
happy birthday anw.
she said wait till my birthday, i predict that my day will never come. my six sense is always very true, so please maybe you can do your best to prove me wrong? but i don't expect much too, because im already at the stage of cant expect much alr.
half of my life and heart is numb and dead for you already.
i can feel any love, any happiness as much already
fake smile, fake heart. im artificial. i have artificial favorings.
because i don't have the qualities that you want, but i have the useless quantities
i deserve a better life
thanks ah shihui and sheena,
love loads too. maybe yes she is using me? but i am still like a dumbo down there love her till like mad, but i think its okay. let the story stop there. let the thing hang there. for the time being. i am too tired to settle it.i dont know how to make a decision when my mind is all abt her think that she is 100% perfect. let the time pass and let the story goes on naturelly,just that for now
when she need me, i'll be there.
i might not sms her automatically for now? unless she sms me, if not i might be a irritant
i wont call her for nothing. let her be the one to call me. if not i might be a irritant too.
i wont ask her out for nothing too. maybe yes with a big group.
when she need me i'll always be there, i wont want to leave, because its too hard for me, its even harder then getting a scholarship in NUS. yeah i hope i can get back on path.
i will work hard in charcoal and all. no more jokes from now on. promised. i'll be serious in everything i do.. get back on path to be a proper person.
love cant be everything for me now. friends are equally important, yes maybe 60-40 yeah?
i wont treat my friend unfairly because of love anymore
catching up with xiao hua xiao mao and STELLA! the forever meeting love one! ahhahahahahah <3>
signing off,
DUA BUI SAI
♥Wednesday, October 13, 2010
FUCK, im a loser
i made a decision
but i simpy cant make myself to do it.
i still love you as much and i dont wish to let go.
when you need me, but you dont want me, i stay
when you dont need me and you want me, i'll still say
ILY
♥Monday, October 11, 2010
i need some love. i am fucking lack of love. i cant feel any, i can hear some but not feel it.
i need love. i am a human too.
i sacrifice i get lesser, i do much more better, i get ill treated
what more can i do to get more of your trust, love care concern? I NEED YOU FCUKING LTC! LOVE TENDER CARE!
but i doubt you will give it to me, you simply love him so much, just STFU
hate to see lovely couple because i know i'll never be yours.
tommorow shall be the last day for me to think and to chill. i love my friends.
i love STELLA TAN QIU YAN I LOVE THAM SHIHUI.
no more. i hope. the people around me dont need my LTC.
everytime i give people take advantage of me. ): i shall just STFU.
♥Sunday, October 10, 2010
i miss our everyday message.
i miss our chat on fb.
i miss to see you comment on my status
i miss you replying my tweets
i miss going out with you
i miss everything
you don't know how much i miss you
i miss you.
i am starting to lose you already.
he must be happy. im okay with it,
its all up to you already, letting the string go, if you dont pull, i'll leave.
friends who are reading thanks, dont mention abt this in front of me.
dont tell her about this post. let her find out herself, which i doubt she will be reading.
but its okay.
maybe its time
♥Tuesday, October 5, 2010
after you left, i realize how important you are to me, i realise how much i depend on you. whenever i need someone, you are always on my mind. wondering when can i talk to you? when will you play and talk to me like last time?i really want you back, no one can actually take over your position in my heart i bet.i just need you as my "diary" so badly ): i was made to kiss your cheek today, actually honestly speaking i was hoping that i can stay there longer.
i miss you
why am i that dumb to allow such thing to happen in the first place?
and is it a lie, white lie, or truth?
If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see. And between and now then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you. Love, me
