happy birthday jessica
yes ah! finally my mood is back! i am so happy and very long never laugh my ass out for like so loud so long and everything alr! but i think this is my REAL LAUGHTER! and not what you mean sheena! I LAUGH BECAUSE I AM HAPPY AND NOT SAD! I CRY BECAUSE I AM SAD AND NOT HAPPY! YEAPPIE.
school IS! omg char siew, nice eh, but slowly majiam not nice sio.. but okay lah! i cook one so its still very nice.. its like DUH~~ and today i went home in the afternoon and its like so rare it had been so long since i am at home in the afternoon DURING WEEKDAYS, omg i miss the times...
saw zi ang today, and like omg i seriously miss dunearn sooo much i realise. i miss the times when we fight and spar at one corner, hor jiali, i miss the times tat we hide in the classroom during recess t eat guava, and i miss the times we chiong for recess and $2 xia mian dont want veg soup many many hor joey tham! i miss the times that we slack at 426 and 417... i miss the times that we 985 home.. i miss the times that we go for band and fall in here and there, play beautiful musics OMG! i am so gonna go back someday..
Denial- i feel fine, this cant be happening, not to me.
denial is usually only a temptorary defense for the individual. this feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behinf after death.
Anger- why why me? its not fait, how can this happen to me? who is to blame?
once in the second stage, the individual recognise that denial cannot continue, because angey, the erpson is very difficult to care for die to misplaced feelings of rage and envy, any individual that symbolizes life for energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.
Bargaining- just let me live to see my children graduate., i'll do antything for a few more years, i will give my life savings if..."
the thrid stage involves the hope that the individual; can somehow postpone or delay death, usually the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle.psychologically, the individual is saying, i understand i will die, but if i coul just have more time.
Depression- i am so sad, wy bother with anything ? i am going to die, whats the point? i miss my loved one, why go on?
during the forth stage, the dying person begins to undertand the certainly of death,. because of this the individual; maybe become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the tim crying anf grieving. this process allows the dying person to disconnect oneself from thigns of love and affection. it is not recommended to attempt to cher up an individual who is in this stage, it is an imptant time for grieving that must be processed.
Acceptance- its gonna to be okay, i cant fight it, i may as well prepare for it.
in theis last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with their mortiality or that their loved one.
i am in stage one and two and FML i still have a long way to go. prepare to not have good life.
*when i see you happy, i'll be happy. stay happy always kays!
