once a heart breaker, now people break my heart.
nbcb
♥Sunday, February 27, 2011
im once a cheater, now i kena cheat.
♥Tuesday, February 22, 2011
you once told me you love me, you once called me baby, you once left someone else because of me, i though it was real, i trusted you so much yet, i dont expect something like this to happen.
in the past you use to follow behind me and lend me a shoulder and ask me what happen are you okay? but now you left me but you din realise, you walked away but you lie and told me that you are still never and never leave me. today i splash the hot noodle soup on my leg, i walked to the toilet. expecting that you will come after me and help me. but i was so wrong you stayed there and carry on eating your thing,i told you i am sick and i stomach pain fel uncomfortable, you use to come in t the cubicle with me to comfort me. how about now? you walk away with others and went off to do whaterver you wanna do.
yes i am jealous but i know i cant do anything, i din control what you text who you text, i talked to myself. what more can i do have you ever put yourself in my shoe? i dont think so. you expect me to leave everything as per normal and carry on with life when you know that i love you so deeply. have you ever appreciated my love for you? i doubt so seriously.
when you are with ... you told me you love me and you came to me. when you are w me, ... and ... came and went off. tellinh me something that i never even once expected, you told me im your responsibilty because you owe me too much, and you gave me whatever i need, so all of it is forced? tell me the truth seriously i ca take it, its just the matter of time. you already hurt me till this extend why dont wanna tell me more and just say everything out and let me go off? i know im unable to walk away i told you i'll be there forever. i know but me myself have feeling im a human too. i hope i can just hack care and keep quiet from now on. the story we begin it tgt, i put in more effort than you do. i know. one sided love at least. halfway through you told me you love me, is it the truth? by mending it. its so hard already. i dont think you will come back again.
i believe i din do you anything wrong, i put in all my heart and know you take my heart and throw it down into the drain. what are you thinking? in front of me you do so much thing. how about behind me even you dont care and you never love me before? i really dont understand someone please enlighten me really.
yes i do hate both of them for now. one what bollyhood actor, another one what? a sweet guy to you? carry on wait i se e how long you can wait. im speechless.
i hope i can stop loving, because the feeling is soo hard so pain. really im in pain. i fell down,now i have to go back to kindergarden to learn how to crawl stand up and walk back on track. i want to success in my career can love stop me from all this? i though i could study in shatec for long. study till i graduate w flying colours and all. but now i doubt i can unless i am smart and clever enough to wake myself up. thanks for everything that you gave me, thanks i hope i will love you forever without you knowing. im not lying. really. im in pain i fell hard on the ground will you lend me your lovely hands and pull me up to make me walk back on track?
tell me whose on your mind now? tell me i really want to know, even if you keep your mouth shut and not tell me i have nothing to say because i dont think you will help me
i sacrifice my family friend time money on you, i know you are guilty, dont be my dear. its all worth it for the time being, till i regret. i know i love you deeply. forever love.
i can still be the one listening to your sorrows and all. just dont push me away let me walk away slowly silently will you? i believe i will and i can do it. i wont pester you anymore. i told you before i will love for who you are. but till now i dont think you understand what i am talking about. do you need me to get someone to explain to you or you yourself put in some effort and study what i had once told you?
we can be as happy as ever, no string attached. but i dont it will happen ever again because both party arent working hard enough, when one person pulls the string hard, e other one is not. when we are both serious about it. we oth are leaving, teach me tell me what you want me to do? teach me how to not get affected, teach me how to overcome all this? i really dont know how to settle this problem. i am once someone who give people advice, taurus is somebody who can give people good love advice, but what i need now most is not advice, people around me gave me a lot of advice and left w disappointment. why? because i do so much things just for you that everyone left me, so now im just left w my family. they did not leave because they dont kno e whole story and they dont know whats going on. i hope they wont know or they will leave. im sorry mummy, i really need my mum's shoulder but i dont know how to tell her. whatever thing that i do its always so wrong i dont know why.
when i need your shoulder you gave me a cold shoulder. or you lend me your shoulder but it seems to be forced. im sorry if i really did force you because you show me that you arent being forced though.
cheerup myself. please, i gotta take exam overcome everything as well as exams internship and my dip. i promise i leave to the place that i last planned, i planned what to do already. not europe anymore, discussed w my parents already. see you or not see you up to you. im disappointed. i hope all this things wont happen to me what heart break lah nbcb everythign wont come anymore just fcuking leave me and let me start a new life. will god bless me
in the past you use to follow behind me and lend me a shoulder and ask me what happen are you okay? but now you left me but you din realise, you walked away but you lie and told me that you are still never and never leave me. today i splash the hot noodle soup on my leg, i walked to the toilet. expecting that you will come after me and help me. but i was so wrong you stayed there and carry on eating your thing,i told you i am sick and i stomach pain fel uncomfortable, you use to come in t the cubicle with me to comfort me. how about now? you walk away with others and went off to do whaterver you wanna do.
yes i am jealous but i know i cant do anything, i din control what you text who you text, i talked to myself. what more can i do have you ever put yourself in my shoe? i dont think so. you expect me to leave everything as per normal and carry on with life when you know that i love you so deeply. have you ever appreciated my love for you? i doubt so seriously.
when you are with ... you told me you love me and you came to me. when you are w me, ... and ... came and went off. tellinh me something that i never even once expected, you told me im your responsibilty because you owe me too much, and you gave me whatever i need, so all of it is forced? tell me the truth seriously i ca take it, its just the matter of time. you already hurt me till this extend why dont wanna tell me more and just say everything out and let me go off? i know im unable to walk away i told you i'll be there forever. i know but me myself have feeling im a human too. i hope i can just hack care and keep quiet from now on. the story we begin it tgt, i put in more effort than you do. i know. one sided love at least. halfway through you told me you love me, is it the truth? by mending it. its so hard already. i dont think you will come back again.
i believe i din do you anything wrong, i put in all my heart and know you take my heart and throw it down into the drain. what are you thinking? in front of me you do so much thing. how about behind me even you dont care and you never love me before? i really dont understand someone please enlighten me really.
yes i do hate both of them for now. one what bollyhood actor, another one what? a sweet guy to you? carry on wait i se e how long you can wait. im speechless.
i hope i can stop loving, because the feeling is soo hard so pain. really im in pain. i fell down,now i have to go back to kindergarden to learn how to crawl stand up and walk back on track. i want to success in my career can love stop me from all this? i though i could study in shatec for long. study till i graduate w flying colours and all. but now i doubt i can unless i am smart and clever enough to wake myself up. thanks for everything that you gave me, thanks i hope i will love you forever without you knowing. im not lying. really. im in pain i fell hard on the ground will you lend me your lovely hands and pull me up to make me walk back on track?
tell me whose on your mind now? tell me i really want to know, even if you keep your mouth shut and not tell me i have nothing to say because i dont think you will help me
i sacrifice my family friend time money on you, i know you are guilty, dont be my dear. its all worth it for the time being, till i regret. i know i love you deeply. forever love.
i can still be the one listening to your sorrows and all. just dont push me away let me walk away slowly silently will you? i believe i will and i can do it. i wont pester you anymore. i told you before i will love for who you are. but till now i dont think you understand what i am talking about. do you need me to get someone to explain to you or you yourself put in some effort and study what i had once told you?
we can be as happy as ever, no string attached. but i dont it will happen ever again because both party arent working hard enough, when one person pulls the string hard, e other one is not. when we are both serious about it. we oth are leaving, teach me tell me what you want me to do? teach me how to not get affected, teach me how to overcome all this? i really dont know how to settle this problem. i am once someone who give people advice, taurus is somebody who can give people good love advice, but what i need now most is not advice, people around me gave me a lot of advice and left w disappointment. why? because i do so much things just for you that everyone left me, so now im just left w my family. they did not leave because they dont kno e whole story and they dont know whats going on. i hope they wont know or they will leave. im sorry mummy, i really need my mum's shoulder but i dont know how to tell her. whatever thing that i do its always so wrong i dont know why.
when i need your shoulder you gave me a cold shoulder. or you lend me your shoulder but it seems to be forced. im sorry if i really did force you because you show me that you arent being forced though.
cheerup myself. please, i gotta take exam overcome everything as well as exams internship and my dip. i promise i leave to the place that i last planned, i planned what to do already. not europe anymore, discussed w my parents already. see you or not see you up to you. im disappointed. i hope all this things wont happen to me what heart break lah nbcb everythign wont come anymore just fcuking leave me and let me start a new life. will god bless me
♥Saturday, October 23, 2010
你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱
我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害
我以为我的温柔
能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力
填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右
弥补他一切的错
也许我太过天真
以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为
他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁
我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望
少给我一点希望
希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望
♥Thursday, October 21, 2010
its a very happy day, maybe from now on everyday will be a happy day
♥
it can be a very happy day, and it is (:
♥Tuesday, October 19, 2010
hey baby!
i understand the whole situation after this few days already.
i love you (:
i believe in myself
i decided to take back the string again, decide to trust you once more.
you know what i mean already, remember what i tell you.
love you.
♥Saturday, October 16, 2010
i hope there will be a better tomorrow.
i hope you will say something different tomorrow
i hope you will give me something different tomorrow
i hope you will hug me tomorrow
i hope you will kiss me tomorrow
i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow
i hope you will call me tomorrow
i hope you will meet me tomorrow
i hope you will make tomorrow a better day
but everyday it ende up with another dissappointment
everyday the disappointment get worse.
i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow,but you shows that even if you have the medicine you wont want to mend it.
because by name and by heart, you dont belongs to me
i dont have the qualities you want.
he can do everything better than me.
im a laughing stock.
whatever he can give i cant give.
he can treat you better
he can be more polite than me
he can provide you more than i can
he has a dick but i dont
he have the rights to have you but i dont
he can do everything better than me.
he can act like a clown and make you laugh every moment and i cant
he can let you bully till you happy but i cant
he can accompany you when you need him every moment but i cant.
he can wake up early for you but i cant
he can buy you best food ever but i cant
he can help you when you dont have something but i cant
he can make you get an MC. but i cant
he can make you skip school but i cant
he can make you blacklisted in school but i cant
he can make you look like a dumb ass but i cant
he can make you cry like fcuk but i cant
he can cover you from every trouble but i cant
