tokenqi

2011-02-27T05:14:00.000-08:00

im once a cheater, now i kena cheat.

once a heart breaker, now people break my heart.

nbcb

2011-02-22T21:57:00.000-08:00

you once told me you love me, you once called me baby, you once left someone else because of me, i though it was real, i trusted you so much yet, i dont expect something like this to happen.
in the past you use to follow behind me and lend me a shoulder and ask me what happen are you okay? but now you left me but you din realise, you walked away but you lie and told me that you are still never and never leave me. today i splash the hot noodle soup on my leg, i walked to the toilet. expecting that you will come after me and help me. but i was so wrong you stayed there and carry on eating your thing,i told you i am sick and i stomach pain fel uncomfortable, you use to come in t the cubicle with me to comfort me. how about now? you walk away with others and went off to do whaterver you wanna do.
yes i am jealous but i know i cant do anything, i din control what you text who you text, i talked to myself. what more can i do have you ever put yourself in my shoe? i dont think so. you expect me to leave everything as per normal and carry on with life when you know that i love you so deeply. have you ever appreciated my love for you? i doubt so seriously.
when you are with ... you told me you love me and you came to me. when you are w me, ... and ... came and went off. tellinh me something that i never even once expected, you told me im your responsibilty because you owe me too much, and you gave me whatever i need, so all of it is forced? tell me the truth seriously i ca take it, its just the matter of time. you already hurt me till this extend why dont wanna tell me more and just say everything out and let me go off? i know im unable to walk away i told you i'll be there forever. i know but me myself have feeling im a human too. i hope i can just hack care and keep quiet from now on. the story we begin it tgt, i put in more effort than you do. i know. one sided love at least. halfway through you told me you love me, is it the truth? by mending it. its so hard already. i dont think you will come back again.
i believe i din do you anything wrong, i put in all my heart and know you take my heart and throw it down into the drain. what are you thinking? in front of me you do so much thing. how about behind me even you dont care and you never love me before? i really dont understand someone please enlighten me really.
yes i do hate both of them for now. one what bollyhood actor, another one what? a sweet guy to you? carry on wait i se e how long you can wait. im speechless.
i hope i can stop loving, because the feeling is soo hard so pain. really im in pain. i fell down,now i have to go back to kindergarden to learn how to crawl stand up and walk back on track. i want to success in my career can love stop me from all this? i though i could study in shatec for long. study till i graduate w flying colours and all. but now i doubt i can unless i am smart and clever enough to wake myself up. thanks for everything that you gave me, thanks i hope i will love you forever without you knowing. im not lying. really. im in pain i fell hard on the ground will you lend me your lovely hands and pull me up to make me walk back on track?
tell me whose on your mind now? tell me i really want to know, even if you keep your mouth shut and not tell me i have nothing to say because i dont think you will help me
i sacrifice my family friend time money on you, i know you are guilty, dont be my dear. its all worth it for the time being, till i regret. i know i love you deeply. forever love.
i can still be the one listening to your sorrows and all. just dont push me away let me walk away slowly silently will you? i believe i will and i can do it. i wont pester you anymore. i told you before i will love for who you are. but till now i dont think you understand what i am talking about. do you need me to get someone to explain to you or you yourself put in some effort and study what i had once told you?
we can be as happy as ever, no string attached. but i dont it will happen ever again because both party arent working hard enough, when one person pulls the string hard, e other one is not. when we are both serious about it. we oth are leaving, teach me tell me what you want me to do? teach me how to not get affected, teach me how to overcome all this? i really dont know how to settle this problem. i am once someone who give people advice, taurus is somebody who can give people good love advice, but what i need now most is not advice, people around me gave me a lot of advice and left w disappointment. why? because i do so much things just for you that everyone left me, so now im just left w my family. they did not leave because they dont kno e whole story and they dont know whats going on. i hope they wont know or they will leave. im sorry mummy, i really need my mum's shoulder but i dont know how to tell her. whatever thing that i do its always so wrong i dont know why.
when i need your shoulder you gave me a cold shoulder. or you lend me your shoulder but it seems to be forced. im sorry if i really did force you because you show me that you arent being forced though.
cheerup myself. please, i gotta take exam overcome everything as well as exams internship and my dip. i promise i leave to the place that i last planned, i planned what to do already. not europe anymore, discussed w my parents already. see you or not see you up to you. im disappointed. i hope all this things wont happen to me what heart break lah nbcb everythign wont come anymore just fcuking leave me and let me start a new life. will god bless me

2010-10-23T20:38:00.001-07:00

你曾说不想有天让我知道
你对他有那么好
你说会懂我的失落
不是靠宽容
就能够解脱

我以为我出现的时候刚好
你和他正说要分开
我以为你已对他不再期待
不纵容他再给你伤害

我以为我的温柔

能给你真的愉悦
我以为我能全力

填满你感情缺口
专心陪在你左右

弥补他一切的错

也许我太过天真

以为奇迹会发生
我以为终究你会慢慢明白
他的心不在你身上
我的关心你依然无动于衷
我的以为只是我以为

他让你红了眼眶

你却还笑着原谅

原来你早就想好

你要留在谁身旁

我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望

少给我一点希望

希望就不是奢望
却输得那呢绝望

2010-10-21T06:35:00.002-07:00

its a very happy day, maybe from now on everyday will be a happy day

2010-10-21T06:35:00.001-07:00

it can be a very happy day, and it is (:

2010-10-19T09:41:00.000-07:00

hey baby!

i understand the whole situation after this few days already.

i love you (:

i believe in myself

i decided to take back the string again, decide to trust you once more.

you know what i mean already, remember what i tell you.

love you.

2010-10-16T05:41:00.001-07:00

i hope there will be a better tomorrow.

i hope you will say something different tomorrow

i hope you will give me something different tomorrow

i hope you will hug me tomorrow

i hope you will kiss me tomorrow

i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow

i hope you will call me tomorrow

i hope you will meet me tomorrow

i hope you will make tomorrow a better day

but everyday it ende up with another dissappointment

everyday the disappointment get worse.

i hope you will mend my heart tomorrow,but you shows that even if you have the medicine you wont want to mend it.

because by name and by heart, you dont belongs to me

i dont have the qualities you want.

he can do everything better than me.

im a laughing stock.

whatever he can give i cant give.

he can treat you better

he can be more polite than me

he can provide you more than i can

he has a dick but i dont

he have the rights to have you but i dont

he can do everything better than me.

he can act like a clown and make you laugh every moment and i cant

he can let you bully till you happy but i cant

he can accompany you when you need him every moment but i cant.

he can wake up early for you but i cant

he can buy you best food ever but i cant

he can help you when you dont have something but i cant

he can make you get an MC. but i cant

he can make you skip school but i cant

he can make you blacklisted in school but i cant

he can make you look like a dumb ass but i cant

he can make you cry like fcuk but i cant

he can cover you from every trouble but i cant

2010-10-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

thanks to THAMM~~ sheenaa~~ THINK THINK THINK

when out to chinatown with jessica and shihui. OMG! have total fun, from charcoal laugh till Chinatown, from Chinatown laugh back to charcoal to get macaroons. and end up we get mixed up with time and never buy at discounted price =.=

shihui got a new name which is = xiao mao!

jessica got a new name which is = xiao hua!

and mine! i dont want to tell i shy k! although here very bright but never mind i shine all the time. whats with xiao mao peeing in her pants when laughing to our joke?

MUAHAHAHHA super funny DRANK KOI!! YEAH YIPEEE hazelnut taste nice tooo. enjoyed my whole fcuking day! <3>

when to meet a siao char bor too <3>

suppose to be happy to meet her, but hais sadding life, i ahve a sad life.

but still yah lah. see her i very happy. =) omg, <3>

choosing slippers for her <3>

choosing cake for her <3>

yeap nice slippers and cakes hope he enjoy.

happy birthday anw.

she said wait till my birthday, i predict that my day will never come. my six sense is always very true, so please maybe you can do your best to prove me wrong? but i don't expect much too, because im already at the stage of cant expect much alr.

half of my life and heart is numb and dead for you already.

i can feel any love, any happiness as much already

fake smile, fake heart. im artificial. i have artificial favorings.

because i don't have the qualities that you want, but i have the useless quantities

i deserve a better life

thanks ah shihui and sheena,

love loads too. maybe yes she is using me? but i am still like a dumbo down there love her till like mad, but i think its okay. let the story stop there. let the thing hang there. for the time being. i am too tired to settle it.i dont know how to make a decision when my mind is all abt her think that she is 100% perfect. let the time pass and let the story goes on naturelly,just that for now

when she need me, i'll be there.

i might not sms her automatically for now? unless she sms me, if not i might be a irritant

i wont call her for nothing. let her be the one to call me. if not i might be a irritant too.

i wont ask her out for nothing too. maybe yes with a big group.

when she need me i'll always be there, i wont want to leave, because its too hard for me, its even harder then getting a scholarship in NUS. yeah i hope i can get back on path.

i will work hard in charcoal and all. no more jokes from now on. promised. i'll be serious in everything i do.. get back on path to be a proper person.

love cant be everything for me now. friends are equally important, yes maybe 60-40 yeah?

i wont treat my friend unfairly because of love anymore

catching up with xiao hua xiao mao and STELLA! the forever meeting love one! ahhahahahahah <3>

signing off,

DUA BUI SAI

2010-10-13T03:04:00.001-07:00

FUCK, im a loser

i made a decision

but i simpy cant make myself to do it.

i still love you as much and i dont wish to let go.

when you need me, but you dont want me, i stay

when you dont need me and you want me, i'll still say

ILY

2010-10-11T08:25:00.000-07:00

i need some love. i am fucking lack of love. i cant feel any, i can hear some but not feel it.

i need love. i am a human too.

i sacrifice i get lesser, i do much more better, i get ill treated

what more can i do to get more of your trust, love care concern? I NEED YOU FCUKING LTC! LOVE TENDER CARE!

but i doubt you will give it to me, you simply love him so much, just STFU

hate to see lovely couple because i know i'll never be yours.

tommorow shall be the last day for me to think and to chill. i love my friends.

i love STELLA TAN QIU YAN I LOVE THAM SHIHUI.

no more. i hope. the people around me dont need my LTC.

everytime i give people take advantage of me. ): i shall just STFU.

2010-10-10T08:57:00.000-07:00

i miss our everyday message.

i miss our chat on fb.

i miss to see you comment on my status

i miss you replying my tweets

i miss going out with you

i miss everything

you don't know how much i miss you

i miss you.

i am starting to lose you already.

he must be happy. im okay with it,

its all up to you already, letting the string go, if you dont pull, i'll leave.

friends who are reading thanks, dont mention abt this in front of me.

dont tell her about this post. let her find out herself, which i doubt she will be reading.

but its okay.

maybe its time

2010-10-05T08:15:00.001-07:00

after you left, i realize how important you are to me, i realise how much i depend on you. whenever i need someone, you are always on my mind. wondering when can i talk to you? when will you play and talk to me like last time?i really want you back, no one can actually take over your position in my heart i bet.i just need you as my "diary" so badly ): i was made to kiss your cheek today, actually honestly speaking i was hoping that i can stay there longer.

i miss you

why am i that dumb to allow such thing to happen in the first place?

and is it a lie, white lie, or truth?

If you get there before I do, don't give up on me. I'll meet you when my chores are through, I don't know how long I'll be. But I'm not gonna let you down, darling wait and see. And between and now then, till I see you again, I'll be loving you. Love, me

2010-09-25T08:56:00.000-07:00

EH FCUKING HELL, YAH LAH I ADMITT I WANT MAYBELLINE, AND I ADMITT I WANT JUNE BACK CAN A NOT? FCUKING SHUT UP. I KNOW I CANNOT WANT 2 , BUT YOU KNOW I WANT JUNE BACK FOR A REASON NOT THAT LOVE REASON. I JUST NEED HER! FUCK YOU FOR BAD-MOUTHING HER, TREAT IT AS I DONT HAVE YOU AS A FRIEND. SHOOOO KNN NBCB.

FOR THOSE WHO ARE READING, IF I CATCH YOU BAD MOUTH EITHER MAYBELLINE OR JUNE, YOU ALL WILL BE IN DEAD MEEAT. SERIOUSLY DEAD MEAT. FCUKERS

2010-09-23T09:17:00.001-07:00

to this fucking RAYMOND TOK KANG HAN OVER THERE, you knn you think what? got cork dua sai? if dont have my mother you think you have will your career your car BM? think again lah hor pua ji bai. gamble drink is all you need fcuker.. what? scold my maybelline, never die b4? you fcuking hell go changi sell your bloody backside, i dont even think that someone there wants it oh please, you have no rights to talk about love when your own marriage is like this. you cant even care for yourself you wanna care about me? no way man. you should just get lost of our side and return us what we gave yyou.

and fyi, money cant buy love, love is about the feeling you know the feeling? ooops i forget your are even worse than a dog you cant even understand what i am talking abt. im sorry k, i go hire one dog specialist to translate for you alright,.pay be back the fees when you become human. i should have just kill you that day for saying that about the person i love. i dont mind going to jail for killing you to punish you for saying that.you nbcb, no wonder you have this fcuking first love, dont even know how to celebrate a birthday or an anniversary, still need me to help you., you are seriously useless. even worse than a fcuking dog. just like one of my friend? expect everything but you dont work hard to gain it. YOU DONT WORK HARD HOW TO YOU GET IT? ISNT THAT FUNNY? OH GOD SAVE YOUR FCUKING PATHETIC SOUL. i know you are reading this, because i fucking hell give you my URL happy reading.

and to this mother over there, you get a little more respect from me, because you side maybelline, so now what? you side maybelline then you also dua sai is it? you trying to be funny? you can hong around i cannot? i can do better than you but i am fine with just one girl over there. i am happy enough to see her everytime when i need. im better because i dont go around flirting and attract attention anymore. yes this is a no route true love, but i am fcuking in love with her what t do now? who started everything about BI-sexual? you are partly to blame so you cannot blame me too. i tried hard for a few times, but i failed. yes i got this fcuking illness that cost you a bomb! SO? who cause all this? who made me shut myself and not talk to you? who made me smash the vast? who made me spoil the table? i am not totally in fault so jsut shut up. i just need my own life. no one can give me that kind of special little love, even its 1% i can still fell it. because its her, you can also be a mother who can give me such love just as what she can give. although she never do anything t show out the love, but i can just simply feel it, maybe its illusion or what soever you said it. but i jut love her madly. you cant stop me. i have no one to talk to since 3 weeks ago.you are once a diary to me. yes i know elaine is a ncie girl. but i dont like her alr, can? i used to chat and talk to you, but now i cant alr, because you loose the that kind of i dunno what is that called which makes you dont even understand me and we cant even talk, you just dont understand what situation i am now you still make noise. just might as well just shut up and suck up with that fcuking guy. just leave me alone, i know what im doing. even if one day i die for her. AT LEAST I DIE FOR HER BECAUSE I LOVE HER. i experience WHAT IS LOVE.

2010-09-20T07:38:00.001-07:00

Today's paper was fine.. i feel that its fine, and i can pass it. i slept @ 3am last night for god sake! was on the phone happily chatting with jiayi! muahahhahaha. happy happy! =DD

but honestly i din really study, but i manage to answer most of the question and the calculation part. yoohoo! okay lucky me.

after the paperr! when to AMK with stella and shihui! we went to the library to study! cool i was damn in the mood to study but both of them HAIS CMI! see now its not my fault muahahahah! so physco each other and END UP AT ARCADE =.= forever one. went to hub's arcade but dont have the coin fishing ): so we proceed to PLAZA SING! yes ah! we went coin fishing for like i dunno how long, kinda long. WE CATCH TORTISE INSTEAD OF FISH! MUAHAHAHA then can hear the cheng cheng cheng coins dropping! oh god cool man! super harpie! it luck too

PLAZA SING SHOULD BE A DE-STRESS PLACE FOR WE 3 FROM NOW ON! YES AH!

like a cool i left and i went to do the voluntary work, like a cool! i have patience k! i clench my fist and seriously wanna smack that person but i still smile! =DD

yes ah TOKENQI THATS THE WAY! I CAN FEEL THE HEALING RATE IS GOING V QUICKLY.. =DD

friends are kinda impt, as what she had said. happy family but mine is a broken one, so now FRIENDS AND YOU YOU YOU IS DAMN IMPT TO ME ALRIGHT! DONT LEAVE I LOVE YOU!! =DD

2010-09-18T08:30:00.001-07:00

I, Tokenqi, take you, maybelline chia xinyi,as my soul mate and companion
Together, we can accomplish anything.
Together, we will be better than we could be alone.
Together, we will share our love with the world.
Together, our love will grow into a bond too strong to break.
Our love may be like the ebb and tide of the ocean, but it will always flow.
Through the good and bad, I want you to always know that I will be by your side.
I will be there for you in the ups and downs of life.
I pledge my all to you.

"Amazed"

I, Tokenqi, take you, maybelline chia xinyi, as my best friend for life. I am so in love with you that I want to promise to stand beside you through thick and thin, through good and bad, through joy and sorrow. I want to spend the rest of my life hearing your thoughts and seeing your dreams. I promise to do my best to make our lives better and better from this day on because I am so amazed by you. This is my solemn vow.

"From This Moment"

From this moment, I, Tokenqi, take you, Maybelline chia xinyi, as my best friend for life. I pledge to honor, encourage, and support you through our walk together. When our way becomes difficult, I promise to stand by you and uplift you, so that through our union we can accomplish more than we could alone. I promise to work at our love and always make you a priority in my life. With every beat of my heart, I will love you. This is my solemn vow.

"1 Corinthians 13"

I, Tokenqi, take you, maybelline chia xinyi, as the love of my life. I vow to be patient with you and the circumstances in our lives. I vow to be kind to all people we come across. I vow not to be boastful of our love or about our accomplishments. I promise to be proud of you, but not proud in love for though I will strive for perfection, I know I can never reach it. I promise not to be quick to anger, but to think before I speak and act. I vow not to keep a record of wrongs, but to always keep the happy memories alive. Through God, our love will never fail.

"Could Not Ask for More"

I, Tokenqi, take you, maybelline chia xinyi, as my everything. I vow to love you through sickness and health, through the good and the bad, through richer and poorer. You are everything I need, and at this moment I know that all my prayers have been answered and that all of my dreams have come true. This is the moment I have waited my whole life for. I promise to give you my all and I know that I could not ask for more from you. I love you and always will. This is my solemn vow.

I PROMISED
In sickness, I will nurse you back to health.
In health, I will encourage you on your path.
In sadness, I will help you to remember.
In happiness, I will be there make to memories with you.
In poverty, I will do all that I can to make our love rich.
And in wealth, I will never let our love grow poor.
When you need someone to encourage you, I want it to be me.
When you need a helping hand, I want it to be mine.
When you long for someone to smile at, turn to me.
When you have something to share, share it with me.
Though life may not always be as perfect as it is at this moment, I vow to always keep my love as pure as it is today. I promise to be there for you in your laughter and your tears, in your sickness and your health, in your comfort and your fears, in your poverty and your wealth. I know that our love is heaven sent, and I promise to be there for you for all your life, come what may.
We have already been through a lot together, and I believe that God has been preparing us for this moment and for our future together. I promise to keep the good memories alive, and to let the bad ones die. I vow not to let the sun go down on our anger, and to treat each morning as a new day to love you, the gift I have been given. I will not forsake you or these vows that we have made, but rather strive to show you my love for the rest of our lives. This is my promise to you.

2010-09-18T00:43:00.000-07:00

You and him was quarreling, i rush down to meet you up. you are crying like nobody's business

when i see you, he is leaving you give you one tight slap and say we're over, you got a slight bang by a car lucky nothing happens, you scream. he turn back and look, and turn away board 506 and leave. how dare him, i dash over to give you a big hug. lucky nothing happens, but your heart seems to be breaking. i pull you over to the stadium's bus stop. and i told you everything will be okay with me around.. you said okay, you stopped crying and you turn over to me saying, 'i think i chose the wrong person, and now its the end, ' i took this chance to ask you to be with me, and you agreed. finally you gave me this chance to prove myself, i made my promise i said

i will not let you have the same feeling as now

i will not shout at you

i will not slap you

i will not leave you

you will be my priority

lover is more important than friends,

you will be my everything

i will do everything to my limits just for you

i will call you 10 times a day

i will text you whenever i am free even its 1 sec

i will be there for you right away when you are lonely

i will make you feel the love revolving around you

i will give you warmth and care

i will not make you feel tight

you will be my everything

i love you.

suddenly A CAR DASH AND A CAR ACCIDENT OCCURRED! BAMMM

and i realise its just a wonderful dream.. how i wish its reall...

2010-09-10T20:59:00.000-07:00

you make me wonder. you make me think. i really think
am i that bad, what people say are sometimes true, but i just cant get myself to listen. because i chose to trust you more than them. but i think i failed, im a failure. she give me wrong idea once and again, you are leading me in a story book. but after all, i still dont understand the moral of the story. can you just tell me how you feel abt me? let me feel secured, have an answer with me, at least when i leave, i know that i tried hard enough.
everyone can see how much effort i put in, but i bet you dont. because you show that you dont even give a damn. i dunno. sometimes you react and sometimes you dont. i dont know what you mean i dont know. just tell me how to feel and i'll shut up..i love you and i really do..

2010-09-10T07:55:00.000-07:00

i was thinking of going for a operation and become someone else and come back to snatch you back, i mean it. i'll give it a try if i can.

2010-09-09T10:15:00.000-07:00

you said oyu gone through the worst. you wanna try mine?
the person who talks and understand you left
the person you love, left
not enough?
i tell you more. send the person you love to her lovers house
let the person you love to the other person
see all the bites around. the things you want but wotn be able to have
living in nightmares every night and no one knows.
hiding one corner to think and cry and no one knows.
the person who understand you really left, and give you a heavy punishment.

I WANT MAYBELLINE, BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE.
I WANT JUNE BACK I WANT JUNE. I WANT JUEN TO TALK TO ME LIKE B4 BUT ITS IMPOSSIBLE. I WANT......
I REGRET I REALLY DO. I HAD A HEAVY PUNISHMENT. I LOSE SOMEONE IMPT. WHATEVER I WANT WONT BE BACK WONT BE BACK.
I AM A FCUKING FAILURE. i want june i want maybelline
i tends to love and want someone who wont be mine.
i should just go and die.

2010-09-08T06:57:00.000-07:00

first, you left me, now another impt persson left me. im meant to be a loner, nbcb
you said b4, if you wanna leave you left 3 months ago. i understadn you are still there, you said if i need you, just give you a call, and you will surely pick up, but look now who is the one HOOK MOTHER FCUKER PINKIE alr still break it? is not that i angry because of small things., its just that you know every small things really meant to me. as what is said on your fb, i think you are force to talk to me, acc me and all. we might as well just stop stop stop what we are doing and become strangers. YOU'RE A HEART BREAKER, i told myself times and again to forget you, i tried damn hard, but seriously its damn hard, rmb my previous post? i still failed. i seriously dunno what to do alr. someone please help me for god sake. the one who normally helps me lending me her ear is gone, she is gone is kinda a great impact. you both once said you will be there for be, but slowly everyone leave me.. whose next? stella? shihui? my mother? my sister? my maid? my cousins? my fahter? JUST ALL FCUKING LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME DIE LIKE SERIOUSLY i am meant to be a loner.

because of love, my whole personality change! i betrayed my ownself, then i make use of someone, then i make someone hate me, then i made everyone leave me , you simply give me the pain that what a normal person cant do.. it really hurts to the max., the pain that you cant describe. KARMA KARMA YOU KNOW WHAT IS FCUKING KARMA? to have to fcuking boyfriend. is not that say he not good, is that he is FCUKING POSSESIVE. because of small things wanna break up break up. HE THINK WAD E WHOLE EARTH VERY GIAN OF SMALL SHORTY WITH STUPID CARTOON WITH HIM? stupid frog. you knn possesive guy. i okok with you at first but now i simply hate you ttc. like seriously. ccb you made a normal guai guai girl, become like what?
3 month never go home.
go out late till like mother fcuker
talk like CAL
do things like CAL
control her like a dog
SHE HAS HER OWN FRIENDS YOU MOTHER FUCKER
you simply sucks ttm. like seriously i have no comments for you.

2010-08-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

its 5 months, 3 months of waiting, 2 months of tolerating.i know i have to move on, and i wont dissapoint most of you again, i believe i can make it.i will say im okay and i will be okay,i've cry all i need and i know i gotta pick up myself and life still have to go on. i know i will be miserable after i leave

thinking of

you being there to make me smile int he morning

waking you up early in the morning with that stupid voice of yours

enjoy eating guava and dumpling made and cut by your grandma

giving you a pek chek face when you wanna chiong bai quan nu wang

be there to listen t you when youneed someone to talk to.

lend you my shoulder when you are not feeling okay

be there for you when you and him quarrel

buying drink sharing and sitting down at the bench

going to the deli and cursing them for failing their math

drinking bubble tea tgt, honey milk tea, honey red tea (:

bring clothes for you for IS

hoping to see you stay over at my house everyday with everyday's dissapointment

letting you sleep on my bed and banging to my cupboard till it gonna fall off anytime

cooking maggee noodle for you

making DIY stuff for every month of 21

having a our own cubical

letting you leave a trademark on my white board

be honoured that you can touch my bed

talking abt piercing and end up doing them

acting as if we quarrel with tht failed face

letting you call me TOKENQI

letting you wipe on my clothes when you dont have a tissue.

enjoy using guardian tissuees.

getting containers for you when you dont have

get everything selttle when you are unable to

TOKENQI BAO GA LIAO rmb?

having my wallet kept in your bag.

having all your things kept in my bag and make it look like a mountain bag

letting you won my everything

letting you bite me when you dont feel okay

letting you pinch me when you dont feel okay.

rmb our sakae, seoul garden..~~ my promise shall stop here

i will feel miserable. but afterall, i still enjoy the times being with you as a FRIEND.

i should not put my hope that high when i know it will drop. i put that high is because i trusted you 100% that you wont hurt me but end up you prove me wrong. i regretted.

i'll make my leave. bye my dear maybelline i love you and i really do. you will be the last one who will take my heart.

and thanks to shihui, stella esp JUNE!

thanks for being there listening to all my craps. i know its irritating, me myself feel darn irritated too, i sometimes dunno what im doing. but still thanks to shihui for accompanying me to clementi when i need thansk stella for being there lending me your ears. and esp june THANK YOU, for giving me advice, lending me your ears, teching me how to take steps to grow up and be mature. thanks. i cannot say i love you, but i like you all..i promise i will grow up have a mature thinking, and wont let you all worry again, still thanks.

2010-08-28T21:55:00.000-07:00

i have a big hole in my heart, and it takes time to mend.

Beautiful
I dont know if i am the one for you this life
I cant help. hearing my voice calling your name
Cause when i
Trying so hard
Not to look in your eyes
Maybe i
Have fallen in love with you

I cant so describe how i'm feeling deep inside
So much more than i can say with your touch
That feels so right
You're mine you're so near
All the time in this space
For now in my heart
I will never let you go
In this life time. do you know why
Oh baby
Cause you're just so beautiful to me

Well tonight, maybe the sound i can hear you breathe
Its alive to see you smile with those tears in your eyes
They may say that your just a gurl in this speeding world
In my heart, you light a world to me

I cant so describe how i'm feeling deep inside
So much more than i can say with your touch
That feels so right
You're mine you're so near
All the time in this space
For now in my heart
I will never let you go
In this life time. do you know why
Oh baby
Cause you're just so beautiful to me

Touch my hand, feel my heart
Hold me close and you'll find me
You'll find me
So beautiful
You're so beautiful to me

you said i made you jealous, but have you ever think, who started it first?

no matter how much i love you, you wont feel it, maybe you did, but you are unwillingly t tell me that you felt it.

i tried my beest to make peace, but i failed, because i love you too much

never tried loving someone so seriously before, you will be the first and the last.

you are just so beautiful to me.

just so simple and admiring.

high voltage.

you never fail to attract my eye to pin on you.

i controlled and act as if i dont love you anymore, but i tried pulling thru 1 week and failed

im just not determined enough.

understooded by your fb post,

i can never give you future, because i am not a fcuking guy.

you look at the future and you believe that he can give you his best.

what you still need the most is still his care and concern and not mine, so what you mean is damn simple, i should fuck off in front of your face, maybe not yours but both of you.

you ask me to make my choice right, and think wisely. i THInk AND THIS IS WHAT COMES OUT.

i broke down all your lines and words. and all i get is just to hurt myself.

you will never never ever feel or go thru the pain im in now.

you hurt me a lot many many.

you make me happy for first 3 months, for e 2 months.

i left with nothing now.

i should just really go and think what i really want

what i wanna become, my career and not love anymore.

i wont let this fcuking love break my wall down. AGAIN

2010-08-23T07:42:00.001-07:00

IS was alright, but still room for improvement, i hope i can do better tmr (: and yea i will! hehe.
project project.all abt project in my mind. rushing for this and that. wtf kinda irritated by it. but i still love to do project.. heart heart.. <3,>

sometimes, i dont know what am i doing. but still i love you. thanks for being there sometimes although you piss me off real hard sometimes.sorry for creating unnessasary trouble. sorry.you know i love you, but i cant, i have to be a silence lover for now. unless.. but which is impossible, but i promised to be happy alright. i'll be there 24/7 but maybe not too over. yeap? 80%-20%, you know, i know, she know what does the percentage mean.

2010-08-09T07:12:00.000-07:00

hmmmm national day sio.. boring~~ hahahhaha, suppose to go chinatown but ended up i didnt muahahah sooooo sorry! end up town with mummy and TOKENMIN! FROM HEEREN TO PARAGON, PARAGON TO THE CATHAY. neh neh, siannns. icecream is <3 fries =".="

thanks to this TOKENMIN kinda make me siasuay. neh neh jitao sia suay majiam i her mother sia! haha, no choice i chose to bring her out. TMR WILL BE A BETTER DAY!

2010-08-06T10:22:00.000-07:00

i have a happy day out today manzxzxz.. today's exams was fine except for the 4 equipment thingy making me piss off nia LOL. but nvm i tried my best, =D after paper off to town with JUNE! i bought a shirt hoho! ironing something on it muahahah! we shall see it on tuesday! =D yes ahhh soo happy. suddenly into the mood of DIY-ing stuff. in short in the mood of doing everything lah! hahaha so harpie..

i hope tmr will be a fine day too (: i think i should spent more time with my parents/ family hmmmm i shall be a good girl then my mummy will love me more and will give me what i want =D SHE SURE KNOW WHAT IS IT!

and people out there, eyes looking is no use. dont judge people by its cover, M-F,and dont anyhow predict things if you dont know like seriously, if you wanna ask or gossip. come straight to my face and get the answer from me, dont ask behind my back or gossip behind my back. dont hint here and there, just say out straight to me, i hate it, maybe not hate but dislike. just ask me lah? like seriously =D

somethings wont turn out how you want it to be, bear with it (:

2010-08-04T05:18:00.000-07:00

damn tired ley this few days, maybe i laugh too much.. extreme happy..

i found out that there is another way of eating french fries thanks to this someone, and i love it wth. fatteninnggg!

FRENCH FRIES + ICE CREAM & FRENCH FRIES + PEPPER is <3>

if anyone is gonna buy me that, i swear i love you muahahaha. its just $4.05 BUY FOR ME!

went home straight after school instead of joining stella and shihui to AMK,, siannns i very tired okay! not i dont wanna go, sorry muahahah next time uh. hehehe *shy

when i reach home i study for a while and sleep okay? mai siao siao.

power nap suppose to be 15mins, but mine is soo different mine is 45 mins MUAHAHAHHA. pro.

2010-08-03T07:44:00.001-07:00

hehhe. the mood is coming the mood is coming! yeah
exams are drawing nearer ): i have to pull up my socks, study hard! everyone study horr!

over here i would like to thanks this someone, =D i shy to say out her name *blush,
you are a very nice person who i can really talk to, and who make me walk out of darkness =D make me think better and maybe think positively lor.you can solve every problem of mine, i dunno why hhhahha. i am so glad to know you, is like, think back how much you have help me. if its not you, i already have a tattoo and doing stupid things and continue being a stupid kat-po (frog) dumb dumb let people take advantage of.. this is what i think lah, thanks =D still remember of the 4 stage of grief ? i am already at the stage of acceptance (: thanks to you, i know you will be there for me always =D muahahahhaah, and i love my daddy.

lionnn should study instead of thinking abt any other thing.concentrate on studies (: all the best for the next coming exams =D stop thinking of anything else, you can do it! actually i know you can do it lor, i should tell myself all this okay yah. just dont be sad so yeap. go clemnti after exams alright? finish it off with a smile =) and i will prove that i am still me myself, yes TOKENQI.

i shall go back clementi to finish off the part..

2010-07-31T21:54:00.000-07:00

OMG I AM SOOOO TIRED! muahahahaha. i have news to announce! now i have a PAPA and a MAMA! muahahahah! find out who are they muahehehehahahhaah. k i am kinda happy with my current life, and i dont regret walking away!

i have a long day ytd, hahah kinda tired! so i think i am gonna rest at home today! recharge battery for MONDAY! monday will be a better day! yahoooo. i have IS to do i have a lot of things to do on monday! so TOKENQI! jiayou..

i promised this someone that i will post my blog every single day! so yea. alright but sometimes busy i wont hor! siao eh, haha sometimes also nothing to post right.

IN SHORT IS THAT I AM HAPPPIEEEE, YAHOOOO

2010-07-31T02:44:00.000-07:00

alrights. today morning went for IS! okay the day was fine, but our dish simply sucks, warm plate cold food oh my goodness. JUNE LAH! never come! then no oven! see lah her fault. okay yah actually no lah, its because we din on in and the salamandar was FULL and we use water bath, but failed. because of the time. omg we should practice more on on-ning the oven muahahhahaa

ok next i would like to say that i love my friends. people like THE PEA (JUNE!) THAT STUPID MEAT BALL! (stella tan qiu yan), THE FUNNY LION (tham shihui),THE SKINNY BOY(brendan), THE JB BOY (yen hong yi), THE MISS MENTAL PATIENT (jessica yeo), <-- who i gave a kiss today woohoo! muahahaha.
thanks uh! listening to my crap, entertaining me muahahahha! esp when i am so stubborn doing stupid things act like a moron. hahaha ok now i promised, WONT ALR! i shall move on! yea. heheh, and special thanks to this someone (:

THIS few days i kinds happy, okay maybe not just happy but DAMN DAMN EXTREMELY HAPPY. hmmm maybe i realise being happy isnt that hard? i usually put up a smile to cover up the sadness but this few days I WANNA USE SADNESS TO COVER UP my happiness also cannot muahahahahah. hehe people happy sio! damn uh. i should hang out more with my friends hehe! *shy. meet them early in the morning! go to school , end lessons tgt enjoy slacking and eating tgt MUAHAHAH! if i can get rid of something which bug me for so long and make me miserable for so long, i CAN surely make it for the coming theory and pratical test! SURE CAN! yes ah! ROCK AH!

I SHOULD STUDY! WORK HARD! CHANGE FOR THE BETTER! yes ah! be a good girl at home! accompany my mother! save my money! yeah hee! GOODNESS I THINK I AM FCUKING HAPPY, i can bloody smile to the laptop till my mother walk in t my room and say, eh can you please stop laughin and smiling to your laptop like a idiot, or i will take away you laptop. MUAHAHAH that shows how happy am i, i can even sing when i am bathing. i can even smile when i am eating, i can even kiss my sister when i was damn piss off with her. i can help my mother fix something which i dunno how but i fixed it! woohoo i so smart. THANKS TO MY MOOD. i love everyone! yeah hee.

i shall go for more shopping and get a present for one of my lovely friend, and buy more things to stuff in my room and hehe buy a present for my sister! MUAHAHAH, i saw a toy ok maybe not a toy a art thingy AT woodlands ytd! OMG i am sooo gonna get it okay! yea hee. anyone wanna sponsor? i dont mind you know.

2010-07-30T05:53:00.000-07:00

things are going and working out differently, it never turn out how i want it to be. since things are already like that, and i know things which i shouldnt know and shouldnt take it to heart as i know they are only to make me smile for a moment and which wont last long, i think its really time for me t bloody hell let go and treat you normally, or else i am a damn selfish person. i think it through for a long time already. i think i should not be so selfish. i wont want to be that person who will worry abt losing someone or even get disturb with someone disturbing his/her love. i've disturb you for already one month, ive done things which are shameless stupid dumb irritating and everything. maybe what i do last time was very sweet very nice to you. but for now i think all those things have already become irritating instead of sweet am i right? i shall just let go, which i know i cant but i am willing to give it a try by taking one step out of your life. i will try very hard to success, walk out of misery. i can still be the one, helping you when you need help, helping you solve things when you cant, listen to you, be available for you 24/7, accompany you home, eat with you. drink bubble tea, share things, going out tgt, maybe next time travel tgt, be there for you always. i am still me, really you know when the whole world crash no one dares to be there to hold you or search for you, no one dares t dash in to a place which is on fire to save you, i will.i promised. no matter what i will be someday, but i will. you get my words.

i suddenly believe this thing called karma. hmmm so people out there dont try, there is this thing call karma and god will make you feel how bad it can be and how much you hurt others. so dont try. even if you did, try your best t make it back.

was out with a lovely friend today, i had a great time even though its like less than 3 hours i think. but i can feel the sudden happiness which i dont have for such a long time. is like i think back, did i ever smile for my own sake and do things for my own sake for the pass few months? maybe yes i am happy in a different way, but think, most of the time, am i happy or sad? maybe andi think its sad. i hope AND MAKE IT A WILL LAH i must be happy from now onwards. not putting a smile behind a miserable life but a natural smile and happiness. i hope i can do it.

thanks for those friend who tried to talk sense into me but i dont listen i know i am irritating but sorry, you know love is blind. but now i chose to walk into a path and leave a trail. taking the first step out and be strong. i hope things will go on smoothly. things which are not meant to be cant be forced.

A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL MY FRIENDS AND ESP YOU. for making me love you and letting me know whats the feeling of getting hurt and wont play around with love feelings anymore, letting me know how much effort , time, energy to build up a relationship. and make me know how to love someone correctly and not stupidly.letting me know how it feels when you really drip down tears for that person sincerely. letting me feel the tiredness of loving someone and letting me know what is the meaning of letting go of true love. thanks. but i can say, i dont regret loving you. <3

2010-07-22T05:42:00.000-07:00

today was a fine day, after lessons went for pool for a while with like LARGE GANG. woohoo, kinda enjoy, but how i wish my wallet is thick hahaha. tmr tmr tmr! just see! muahahahhaha.

bused home with stella that meat ball muahahaha..

i think i should really love my friends more =D i wont throw you all away anymore! come back to me muahahha.i just bought a weighing scale to measure my love for everyone. i should and i will.
BALANCE AH!

you can choose to just do and follow your heart. now i blame also no use.
when i have a chance i did not work for it but leave it hanging. my bad! stupid me

**i can see the humorous side of things and enjoy the fun when it comes but look where i will, there seems to me always more sadness than joy in life.

2010-07-17T22:37:00.000-07:00

slowly breaking.. shall move on and be strong

i think i am doing great by this way.. really.i hope this can continue instead of... yeap.

eh shihui i know you reading, hehe. can i say i love you? hahahah

my phone is like spoilt! OMG no vibration no ring tone, how t bloody phone expect me t like reply and pick up calls? wtf. heading to vivo later JUST to repair the stupid phone omg. lazy lazy.. someone help me please, comee on help me GO.

another thing is that, i dont have a specs! IS needs specs omg, someone accompany me t buy a specs please. jitao lazy. im broke if i carry on like this.

HOW TO GO PU TIEN YOU TELL ME! aiya can one, from today I WILL SPEND LESSER! PROMISED! =D

***LOVE if you have it, you dont need anything else. and if you dont have it, it hardly matters whats else you have..

2010-07-15T05:28:00.000-07:00

its not that i dont wanna trust you, its not that i dont wanna believe you, its just that. each time i believe i'll hurt myself deeply. maybe you wont understand, every single small things matters alright, even its just giving me a small gift it means like the president is giving me $100000000. i choose t trust you once again, but as i said my prediction is always right, i dont even dare t put too much hope in it, or i will suffer. seriously sometimes i think i cant take it anymore. but i simply just cant let go of the string. its like i love you too much. tmr i hope it will be a better day for me t gain trust, hope you can make it. i promise i'll be strong and wont collapse.

today is like a fine day but some stupid katpo irritates me by SNATCHING MY CB SEAT, my bloody red bag is there cant you see? you blind izzit? eye so big for wad? OMG I FORGOT frogs got big eye and they jump like a i ddunno wad. RETARD! first is you. then later in the late morning another fat katpo come and snatch my seat also. whats wrong, is my seat so attractive or just because the person beside me is too attractive? pathetic shatec no money buy chair for you izzit. pathetic students.

*i will love you no matter who you are,

*a picture explains everything

2010-07-12T06:24:00.000-07:00

i had a great day today.. me and shi hui had taro pie! willy and hong yi join us after that...

and i know something that i think i can be happy and sad with... shut up everyone .

2010-07-10T07:36:00.000-07:00

tonight will be a damn happy night i will be going through omg, will be having fun with benson, zi cong, zi yang, keely, jasmine, shawn, hong sheng, jiaying. i hope we have a great chat and drink the hell out of ourself. after today forget about everything and stay happy kay! THANKS BRO AND SIS! (: i know what i am doing. not to worry (: i will control my doings. GET ALIVE AND GET DRUNK!

and BRENDAN I TOTALLY AGREE OF WHAT YOU MENTION IN YOUR BLOG. F LOVED YOUR POST. SERIOUSLY WHATS WRONG WITH IT? its just love, why cant bi sexual survive? the feeling is there you cant just treat it as its nothing right? love him or her? JUST GO LAH! wait durian drop izzit. but if she or he hurt you that will be bad. friends sometimes are simply just better. but sometimes lover is simply just better than friends.

something and people just simply wanna make things sooo difficult for them to cope with. and down there complain. not really complain but make themselve stressful. omg stupid. LOVE CAN BE STUPID AND CAN BE A BLISSFUL ONE, but if you chose the wrong guy or girl, you will seriously regrett, for those people who are attach, dont give your 100% but just your 99% serious. dont trust me END UP YOU'LL GET FCUKING HURT.

i have a new nick name for you sexy, STUPID FROG FROG FROG. KAPO!

*the hardest thing on earth is to watch someone you love to love someone else.. =.=

2010-07-09T06:50:00.000-07:00

happy birthday jessica

yes ah! finally my mood is back! i am so happy and very long never laugh my ass out for like so loud so long and everything alr! but i think this is my REAL LAUGHTER! and not what you mean sheena! I LAUGH BECAUSE I AM HAPPY AND NOT SAD! I CRY BECAUSE I AM SAD AND NOT HAPPY! YEAPPIE.

school IS! omg char siew, nice eh, but slowly majiam not nice sio.. but okay lah! i cook one so its still very nice.. its like DUH~~ and today i went home in the afternoon and its like so rare it had been so long since i am at home in the afternoon DURING WEEKDAYS, omg i miss the times...

saw zi ang today, and like omg i seriously miss dunearn sooo much i realise. i miss the times when we fight and spar at one corner, hor jiali, i miss the times tat we hide in the classroom during recess t eat guava, and i miss the times we chiong for recess and $2 xia mian dont want veg soup many many hor joey tham! i miss the times that we slack at 426 and 417... i miss the times that we 985 home.. i miss the times that we go for band and fall in here and there, play beautiful musics OMG! i am so gonna go back someday..

Denial- i feel fine, this cant be happening, not to me.
denial is usually only a temptorary defense for the individual. this feeling is generally replaced with heightened awareness of situations and individuals that will be left behinf after death.

Anger- why why me? its not fait, how can this happen to me? who is to blame?
once in the second stage, the individual recognise that denial cannot continue, because angey, the erpson is very difficult to care for die to misplaced feelings of rage and envy, any individual that symbolizes life for energy is subject to projected resentment and jealousy.

Bargaining- just let me live to see my children graduate., i'll do antything for a few more years, i will give my life savings if..."
the thrid stage involves the hope that the individual; can somehow postpone or delay death, usually the negotiation for an extended life is made with a higher power in exchange for a reformed lifestyle.psychologically, the individual is saying, i understand i will die, but if i coul just have more time.

Depression- i am so sad, wy bother with anything ? i am going to die, whats the point? i miss my loved one, why go on?
during the forth stage, the dying person begins to undertand the certainly of death,. because of this the individual; maybe become silent, refuse visitors and spend much of the tim crying anf grieving. this process allows the dying person to disconnect oneself from thigns of love and affection. it is not recommended to attempt to cher up an individual who is in this stage, it is an imptant time for grieving that must be processed.

Acceptance- its gonna to be okay, i cant fight it, i may as well prepare for it.
in theis last stage, the individual begins to come to terms with their mortiality or that their loved one.

i am in stage one and two and FML i still have a long way to go. prepare to not have good life.

*when i see you happy, i'll be happy. stay happy always kays!

2010-07-07T08:53:00.000-07:00

once you got whack down, you sure fall down. nothing and no one is able t help you unless you yourself wake up your idea serious. you are a dumb ass,

woah jitai majiam very long never post liao sia, from everyday got post till one week once, now 4 month once. I ZAI thanks uh.

recently i met an idiot HOHOHO. he acts so chimilogy, cum coolalogy, and he thinks that he have cartoonalogy and handsomemalogy and in short is KNS-alogy and pui-alogy so called friend. i cant regard AND IS SO AFRAID OF asking him t be a friend of mine. OMG.

AND recently i have been like day dreaming midnight and I CANT SLEEP omg. hahahah but some of the day i was so happy, although somethings happen. but as shihui have said, forgive and forget so i shall learn how t do it. hohoho.. world cup simply sucks. know why? make me lost so much money, seriously those who wanna bet please transfer your money to my bank account thank you ah.. $5 also happy. i am sooooo broke now thanks to my lovely mom. because she said i treat her as if she is a printing cash machine and how i wish she can be one. IMAGINE! HAHAHAHAH.

AND recently school was like fine, but stupid things DO happen hahahah, like this and that dont wanna mention or my post will be like flooding HOHO. suddenly i feel the punch of typing and i simply just cant stop typing and i feel like posting everything out of my heart hahahhaha. OK LET US JUST TALK ABOUT EVERYTHING hahahah.

this is t one person. i think you know who are you.

love is like this, its like friendship, it come and go. you cant expect anything from it. unless you really treat it as true love, if she is gone, just let her be! what for crying sobbing for her when you know she wont even turn back t give a damn? right? maybe she is like so happy with her current gf/bf or maybe not even tgt but they are simply just so close till you are jealous? everyone's heart sure change, is just the matter of time, unless the person is not a human just like me. LOOK dont learn from me to like love someone till you are dying, injure yourself everyday. you know the car will bang you but you still stand on the road and say COME ON BANG ME PLEASE. this is wad i am doing sometimes. JUST think carefully. and wake up wake up. sorry uh i know how to counsell people but not myself. i know i am dumb but dont say lah i shy*. concentrate on studies alright, studies first. love doesnt matter till you are really into it like maybe for a long lasting relationship..

TO another person.you also should know who are you.

i think you are so stupid to go and wait for that person seriously just forget abt her, she is enjoying life with her bf now, you are like disturbing her and creating a gab between her and her bf. so what if she treat you as BFF? ask you lah BFF or LOVE more impt? when you are not in love you will say its BFF but after you are in love you will 100% say LOVE more impt. i wont lie.

you dont believe its your prob, let me see you one day i seriously feel like slapping you because you are so fcuking dumb t go and wait for her. she bloody dont appreciate as you can see by her actions what for being so dumb and do everything all because of her might as well just quit and leave and bloody get lost of her sight and let her concentrate on studies and happy sweet love with her bloody bf.you see her with her bf you also not happy. you never see her with her bf you stupidly wants her t be happy and ask her t go find her BF arent you stupid you tell me? GO AND DIE SLAPS SLAPS.

to MAYBELLINE CHIA

i have nothiNG to say to you but i love you! HAHAHHAHA. SAY THANK YOU.

2010-05-29T01:55:00.000-07:00

27th may.

i was in school for the whole day attending WHOLE DAY THEORY LESSON. speeches and presentation. oh my goodness, our outfit are like seriously cannot make it. last minute clothing are seriously dead. during the speech it sounded quite funny and i cant control myself, but ended up i did not laugh for the sake of the group. see i am a nice person. dont know what more i can say. when to the nearest so called food court to eat. the portioning are fine but the food are like, oh my goodness, i can hardly eat 10 spoons of it. just left it over there to rot.

28th may.
its a holiday! and we went to johor bahru to have fun. nothing much to say actually and results are out. not very satisfied actually but when i know the whole class result. i was like "sure a not" hahaa.

29th may.
today having lesson in the morning for english and hosting. english is fine doing all the memo thing and stuff, but as for hosting, facing the gay for like an hour plus. oh my goodness, i seriously dont know how to describe him and he is like i cant even understand what is he driving at. after school went to bukit batok mac to do our project and homed.

2010-05-19T04:49:00.001-07:00

school was OKAY. but its like kinda tired. i'm gonna join the SJCC yes like so excited. alright seriously i dont know why i create this blog for. so lazy to post and everything. wait till the english thing is over. ITS OVER.

fcuk

2010-05-01T08:20:00.000-07:00

was super happy eventually. but everything is dead by 6.01pm today. FRENCH CONNECTION UK!

thanks uh alex maybelline, and darren! (: i had super a lot of fun that night. and the afternoon next day. something stupid happen too, and i got banned! i was actually needed to be in time to atten my grandma's birthday and 6pm today. but something delayed and i am late and i got banned! wtf? ok fine. i wont be able to see the world for the time being dont miss me people!

hey babe i love you!

shatec

2010-04-22T09:22:00.000-07:00

so, i was in to shatec and i actually closed this blog but it came alive again because i have this subject name english and the teacher named ms geraldine ong wants us to have a blogspot to do our journal so i am back here posting again. it looks funny but yah haha! alright i dont know what to say but i miss weilin and sherilyn! serious! i haven seen them for ages although its only a few days back HAHA! ALRIGHT I KNOW YOU ARE READING AND YOU ARE TOUCHED. DONT CRY!

and thansk to weilin for helping me with the picture! i am a noob i know haha THANK YOU UH !

2009-10-29T06:02:00.000-07:00

movie marathon. shoo

2009-09-23T22:20:00.000-07:00

what the fuck, dont know which day my bloody gum kena poke by that stupid fish, then swollen, now even though the fish is out but it still fcuking pain! you can feel the swollen part haha. not gonna eat that bloody fish anymore.

not going to school tomorrow self declare ahah.

2009-09-22T04:00:00.000-07:00

i'm like back from holiday, self-declared holiday for one week!

lol alright i know i am a bastard hahaha..

i'll go back tomorrow lah. since so many people miss me. haha

the malacca trip was fun you know!

then when we reach my granny house, my younger cousin go crazy, lantern festival havent even start they wanna play lantern and candles alr.

bobian play with them haha, went to malacca jonker street blah blah, we squeeze till like FCUK! can even walk please. my mom act act push me and say woah lao who push me from behing uh?

then i push the people in front in order to move forward lol.so bad right.

discussing how to put the candle properly.

the younger cousin and my sister.

the crazy sister and the crazy sister

my sister! ahah

MR macho at malacca! hahaa

and people you know i very happy eh! from that night till ytd night! HAHHHAHAAH

super happy! super happy! know why, something GOOD happen! yay yay yay

tags replied.:

nelson.:bo eng lah. haha

sherilyn.: SWEET SMILE!

azimah.:hahah! k lah promise you tmr i'll go back k! and my another darling scold me bastard!! haha so i have to go back! lol, see ya

2009-09-18T21:34:00.000-07:00

hello, to this this this lady over there. i think i can afford to buy a lamborghini,but you hmmm i dont think can hahahhahaha.

going malacca later, hmmm think its for holiday bah, or else go there or wht!

yup thats all! HAHA yesterday night is a fcuking happy night((:

hmmm craving!!

2009-09-17T04:21:00.000-07:00

who dont know she is my girlfriend?

ass, there is this guy who dont use his brain named simon.

haha, he really have a brain but dont wanna use it and to let it rot.

he forced me to say his dearly girlfriend look like jeaneatte aw.

what the hell? ask me to admitt that someone uglier than jeaneatte to look like jeaneatte?

OH MY SHIT! hahaha, then i shoot him by saying. oh please i wont lie. hahaha!

really mah? haha. DONT SNATCH HOR! ahahhah joking lah. someone is even more prettier and handsome than her. hmmmmmmm

today i din attend school again! i dont intend to go school till next week, so people you wont see me till next week! i know you'll miss me(:

And woohoo i love crabby!
now craving for this and that..(:

i miss you badly, haven been talking to you, because i promise myself not to test your patience.
you feel irritated mah, haha, only that person can give you your happiness? then go ahead dont forget her. go tell her that you like her.

holiday!

2009-09-15T08:01:00.000-07:00

i am a very good girl today, so i happily wake up at 6.30 , get changed and get out of house and happily took 985 to bukit batok west avenue 2 DUNEARN secondary. heh heh, THEN! i realise woohoo! so many people never go school! hahaha! bobian everybody things that dunearn teachers have no brain not even a pig brain in their skull to think, why must we waste time in school doing nothing. study during free period might as well stay at home? dumb ass. hahaha. notgoing school tomorrow! because,

1. not feeeling very good.

2. mood is unstable. is that a excuse? ahha
3. DONT FEEL LIKE GOING!
so self-declare HOLIDAY! YEAH!

since joey took her baby photo!
let me be a copy cat! HAHAHA
can you believe thats me?
AH BOY!

hmmmm, i'm forced to take picture. so yah hahahhah!

tags replied.:

jasmine: okay, sorry uh tongue tied. PERRRRLIIINNNCESS correct?

hotel manager.: like tat one lor! i deducted your salary!

marvin deycan.: you too! deducted your salary! hahaa

fionn.:eh not eunice uh? hahaha relinked.

joyce.:YAH HUH! RARE VISITOR! VISIT ME MORE OFTEN MAN! next time go together k!(:

happy birthday jasmine!

2009-09-13T07:56:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE!

jasmine! aka per-lin-cess! haha

so was busy in the afternoon and off the pasir ris costa sands in the evening after jasmine

sms-ed me (: how would i know what time she will reach there right! ahha

school starts tomorrow oh gosh. shit lah, need to pia again lor

those chem comfirm chui one lah. steady pomp pee pee uh.

night study anybody? haha will be joining weilin for night study! yeah and

subway before that, people dont get jealous (:

And this few das is kinda suay day man, i dont know why.

holidays always pass very very very fast. and weekdays will be like so bloody slow!cannot trust GLOBALISATION de ley. lousy pork..

why cant we study at home? e stupid teacher talk to us thru computer you know you know.

err i think thats impossible. ahahhahah.

everybody i have my dream car you know! i must study hard and earn a lot a lot of money and buy a car and a woohoo! HOUSE! for myself. yippee.

stupid channel 5 lady, just because that guy help her fixed her motorcycle., she kiss and hug him. eeeeeeeeeeuk. ok yah stupid,

tags replied.:

marvin deycan.: i think hotel 81 free lor. pay so much for the hotel alr,

ming ming.: your hello very style uh

weijie, siao eh you call one uh haha! i then not your siao eh leh, still single lah!

caiyan.:eh she cute i not cute lah? haha

jasmine.: haha i know you sayang me lah ahha! feed me with so much FOOD!

jasmine.: I WENT! HAHAHAH

i love you

2009-09-11T08:30:00.000-07:00

i am so tired you know, so tired.

today i went to bpp fair price with my dearest mom, so her friend called her and said hey can help me buy luncheon meat for my stall(a person who sells e economic bee hoon thing.)then she said she want us to buy 50 YOU KNOW! oh my shit.

so a nicely lady beside me who is my lovely mother help him!

and i a bloody idiot sqauting down there to take 50 cans of luncheon meat and throw inside the trolley! oh my. and when we push the trolley to e cashier everyone looked at me you knw! i got picture to prove that!

we are so proud to buy LUNCHEON MEAT

growing up

2009-09-10T09:08:00.000-07:00

alright i am turning turning to the right.

i promise.

tags replied:.

Hotel manager.: haha! funny huh! lol i think not $5.30. i only buy high class de, not very expensive. $18.90 only.

Azimah.: HAHA! next time call me when you cannot sleep uh! TOGETHER!

Estehr:HELLO! hhaha

Sherilyn.: dont tell people i force you mah, i shy eh. ahhah! later e building must drop down to cover my face alr uh.!

2009-09-09T03:39:00.000-07:00

you know i am so tired? from sunday i cant get a nice sleep oh please

i had intervals in e night! whats wrong with me seriously!

and that sherilyn, peishi and many more people, so ke lian!

i DISTURBED THEM! ahahhahaha

ok sorry! i wish i can have a good night sleep today

i am GROWING UP!

i have to GROW UP!

i need to GROW UP!

i must GROW UP!

i ought to GROW UP!

YES!

tags replied.:

sherilyn: i always force you to do that uh!

mavis: thanks

jasmine: haha, i am smiling alr, but still a little bit sad.. come sayang me come!

sherilyn:trying! because i am growing up! hah!

2009-09-08T07:44:00.000-07:00

为什么世界上没有人能了解我在想

什么？

能听我的心事的人不多。

偏偏听了我的事情，就把他告诉别人？

我不明白。

我要的东西没人够给我。

我没有怪你，只是不明白为什么

你们知道什么是鸡排吗?

知道就好。

如果人身就像一辈子的小宝宝

就好了。

2009-09-07T21:48:00.000-07:00

social studies paper later at 2. scared haas and i am so full, my mouth full of crap, of food, butt full of shit and yah brain full of social studies. ass haha! so FULL. so gonna die!

and to this bloody person stop all your nonsence k, stop spreading things around, people will get pissed alright.

2009-09-07T05:43:00.000-07:00

thanks for giving me this kinda feeling. thanks.

tags replied.:thanks uh! haha

jasmine:which you agree, must be specific hah

i cant love you anymore

2009-09-06T07:17:00.000-07:00

so, time flies. tomorrow is like my CHINESE PAPER 1&2 ALR EH! oh my bloody god, had been chiong chinese this few days! and thanks uh weilin and sherilyn to be my free dictionary haas.

JIAYOU people! for tomorrow, you think i will fail? you think i will pass? TELL ME TELL ME!!

i think i will pass my paper one and not paper 2 lol. because there will be no dictionary with me! oh my bloody god!

sometimes uh i have to let go, eh mavis what you said, i really need to use it on me now ha..

i miss you so muchhhhh

2009-09-05T04:06:00.001-07:00

i never see someone so busy before man!

like this girl over here,

during her concert, she only can meet me before her concert!

still got when? i forgot!

and i was asking her to meet me after MY exams but she cant she finish her exams on 3rd dec!

and she is GOING to korea!

and maybe she going to dunno where with her friends!

SO?

I cant meet her till next year! ): VERY SAD OK! super

its had been so long man!

whenever i see the spongebob pen! it reminds me who is carol!

the pen that she gave me during her batch's ROD!

she gave me together with peirong!

e card is still with me! its on my white board! E CARD! E CARD AND E PEN E PEN!!

I LOVE YOU CAROL CHIN!!

HAAS.

2009-09-05T01:41:00.001-07:00

this is e girl who help me in everything! lending me her ear, helping me find all sorts of crap, telling all kinds of jokes! and EVERYTHING! wonderful girl! although some subject she CUI but she still able to teach me woohoo! ahhaah.

and the little boy! wo yao he he he he
hey people its time to study you know! exams are like MONDAY ? HAHA scary! its cheena you know,
must not CUI K! must study hard for those who need this take it! a useful tool that ng weilin found! the founder of this Chinese online dictionary! cool thing!

http://us.mdbg.net/chindict/chindict.php?page=worddict&wdrst=0&wdqtm=0&wdqcham=1&wdqt=%E6%A3%80%E8%AE%A8
went for night study yesterday, err i think soo soo only uh not very productive haha! because i am feeling restless! someone please slap me! hahaha. k bye off to study!

this is HILARIOUS!

2009-09-01T06:16:00.001-07:00

PAUSE MY MUSIC AND PLAY THIS VIDEO! THIS IS HILARIOUS!

when you are happy i am happy.

2009-09-01T05:13:00.000-07:00

although i cant be there i hope you are smiling (:
aye buddy i agree to what you said uh. i can just wait.
nothing more i can do, just make sure that she is happy!
its enough.

tags replied.:
sherilyn:heh heh put up cannot take down alr.
hotel manager:hahaha work as toilet bowl cleaner only mah!
weilin:WEILIN!

NO SCHOOL

2009-08-30T06:20:00.000-07:00

i am not going to school tomorrow!

sorry sherilyn! sorry!

SORRY!

tags replied.:

jasmine: ok relinked(:

sherilyn: you're here!!

marvin deycan: CAN CAN I CHOOSE YOU!

hotel manager: you jobless manager! ahahhah! still dare order me! haas

2009-08-28T04:10:00.000-07:00

mood was okay and not okay, wonder what happen to me lor. there are stupid selfish people on earth who snatch for unknown and its not a valuable stuff!! WAD THE ? kinda of DUMB lah please. want snatch, snatch something valuable like money or human beings lah.stupid.

yeah yeah.

2009-08-27T04:45:00.000-07:00

hoho, things were settled! yahoo.com! but i dont know you lah k, just that i know myself i still can talk to you as a friend you dont want is your prob lor. lol.

Did not go for night study today. lalala because my relatives come to my house so i ought to stay at home (: what a nice child i am.

and i love the show 命中主定我爱你。so funny and like touching lah lol.their child name is ji nian pin. next time my child shall be ji nian gao! hahaahahahah, what a joke.

alright, studies is bloody important now hurr

chemistry! i learn new things man! and marvin por kuan yun and seri!

DONT LAUGH AT ME!

its neutralisation and not OSMOSIS anymore ahhahahahahahaha

tags replied.:

isabelle.: hahaha, ji nian pin...

melody.:thank you thank you. not keith? ahhahhha!

night studying is NOT PRODUCTIVE!

2009-08-26T06:12:00.000-07:00

school was alright today. and we had a lot of fun! because there are like jokes all around, including jokes from night studies and so. hahah!

gonna say a joke over here, you know our school have this teacher name ms yang xia?

imagine in chinese 羊虾 so its what? LOOk!

CAN YOU SEE?!

i think its funny imagine you're gonna eat e prawn and you have to pull out e wool before you peel the skin off and eat the prawn!

and today's night study is not productive because what i do is JOKING AROUND! i dunno what am i doing man serious! and come on everyone just put all those stupid unsettled stupid stuff aside and STUDY MAN! hahhhah EXAM are around the corner! GOOD LUCK!

tags replied.:

hotel manager: so you vomitted?

weilin: yeah! just cannot go up and down! ahahhah and yeah weilin;s love heals it!!

HAPPY!

2009-08-25T05:08:00.001-07:00

so today was alright, went straight home after school because of stupid things is happening hahaha! buy settled (: and yes today is the day that i can watch WO YAO CHANG XIA QU

pictures uploaded for ytd(: geraldine birthdday!

people helping to mix wasabi for mr por!

happy birthday! geraldine

nice and ex cake... HAHAHAHHA

e birthday girl waiting people to help her light up the candles

so surprise and anxious! ahha

tan jiaying trying to snap shot huh!

the happiest girl on earth!

i think she is thinking " huh i need to take our the candles myself?"

kuan yun was force to take this picuture! ahhha

look this is the evidence!

eat it!

yeah good girl

i had fun with this tiny thing

look! chemistry k!

ice cream cake suppose to be like this

end up like this

everytime force to take pictures hahaha

the MOCHI'S MY FAVOURITE!hahhaha

BROTHERS!

I AM SO FULL ALRIGHT! LIKE PREGNANT!

happy birthday people!

2009-08-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GERALDINE CHONG!

so "SAKAE" today after school and took lots of stupid pictures. haha! so lazy to upload so maybe i'll do it tmr alrights ahha! and yah went straight to night study with marvin after that thanks for accompanying me! big bro!"can can" hahahah!

i think i have a name from him which is 小巴 and yah something like that which is scientific proven that i am A DOG! LOL ok yah its just a name so yah dont think too much alright.

thanks to sherilyn and friends i learn how to draw chemistry CARTOONS! ok and we can have bear star and many more shapes for e electrons! cool man! ahhahah

i so called enjoyed my day today! but my neck is still........ haha SPRAINED!

manfred and peishi help to massage it! but erm thanks but its still the same ahha!

all thanks to gerald and manfred with the deep heat cream my leg and neck is so cooling from school all the way home! but lucky i have extreme shampoo to clean everything off! ahahahha i use dettol and DOVE! lol i wash those area three times lah oh please..

tags replied.:

c.peishi: welcome! kinda surprise to see you tagging my blog haha! and i tot i just talked to you just now? lol
dine's hotel manager:HAHAHHAHA! yeah me too till gonna vomit everything out man! ahhahaha. oh erm we booked for a hotel next week so yah please make necessary arrangement (:

SPRAINS.

2009-08-23T04:19:00.000-07:00

pain pain here and e pain pain there,

here pain there pain,

everywhere pain pain,

oh my body is injured

pain pain pain pain pain.

like what the hell? ytd only not feeling well, today neck and shoulder kena sprain, so suay man,

is it hinting me something? hais sadded bodoh! suppose to went bugis shop today.

but my mom drove me there but no carpark, because today is SUNDAY!

and my neck cannot tahan so we gotta u-turn and GO HOME! straight away i bomb on the bed and felt asleep. sorry to people whom i ignore their sms.

i am in great pain ahahhah.

should i go school tommorow? i want my results! my results.

A1 FOR EVERYTHING MAN! hhahhahhaha

but chem chui lah! someone please man, help me with that stupid subject.

ITS GERALDINE'S BIRTHDAY TOMMOROW!

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you.

haha! eh grow up already generation gap .. hard to communicate alr..

gonna have our treat man! stay happy girl!

not to forget my this lovely darling!

she is eating a waffle, and when she turn to me.

i bite the another side of it! who knows! when we wanna snap shot it.

we bite e waffle shorter and shorter.

end up we accidentally kiss twice i think! ahahha!

and woah! my hair kiu mor! ahahaha

night studies! i din go for friday night study ahah! but dun worry

people i will be going on monday!!

chem chem chem!

tags replied.:

azimah: haha at home have some medicine mah.

i feel bad!

2009-08-22T01:23:00.001-07:00

people i am not feeling very good! was almost forced to see the doctor. but what the i shy lah stop asking me to see doctor ahha!

not going anywhere today, because i can faint anytime, having severe headache and etc..

my mom is a great mom, she look after me and i felt better haha! doctor sio.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

CHIOH PEISHI!

yeap, stop bully people lah, so old alr!

senior citizens uh!

got generation gap, dunno how to communicate with you alr lol

tags replied!:

kenny: long time no see! hah alright (:

elaine:you forever very bad one eh..

jasmine: ahahah, little princess come tag mian bao chao ren blog uh ahah!

melody: ahah outdated lah you! lol. finally huh!

SOBX.

2009-08-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

HELLO ELAINE I KNOW YOU ARE THERE! YOU ARE SO BAD. I AM CRYING!

should i or should i not?

2009-08-21T05:15:00.000-07:00

i felt stress up sometimes man! awww i know its sad...

as usual went for my F&N paper, and its alright lah.

have my lunch with marvin in the canteen. budget meal sia..

waited for 10.55, to talked to my lovely friends.

went home after that. was considering whether to go for night studying or not.

but when i reach home, so suay, mama say we have to go johor bahru.

so i accompany her there, i bought some shows.

then homed. i am so broke this days man! haha.

hey stupid singapore pool just give me some of your money lah please lol.

just some will do haas.

ITS END OF PRELIM! ITS LIKE FINALLY! BUT TOO BAD N LEVEL IS COMING.

my prelim over, and their prelim starts.

my n level starts, their prelim over.

my n level over, their o level stars.

hmmm i think they are following my butt! hahhahah

wanna smell my fart or something ? i dont mind passing out some hahahaha.

night studying is NOT PRODUCTIVE! HAHA

2009-08-20T06:59:00.000-07:00

today hmmm went to watch this show called 吓到笑 with marvin por, @ lot's. Although the story line is kinda no link but the details are FUNNY lol. Try watching if you HOKKIEN is good k or else dont ever try watching i am sure that you will feel asleep.

the tickets.

my seat!

And people my leg is fine! i can jump kick people and do everything i want! of course i am a pro man. Although i everytime self-praise but whatever i say is true right! uhhhhhhh i know its right ok. i can answer it by myself. i've been laughing all day long today man. which means i am super happy today. because that irritant left me! i am happy.

And hmmm tommorow is like my last paper! woohoo so happy but i still have to study for my next EXAMS! so irrittating.. anyway thanks uh marvin for accompanying me to night study although you are having a bad headache.. BROTHER MAH! =D

People! who want my love? come on just tell me i know many people wants it right? like
azimah,

weilin

sherilyn.

audrey!

AND MANY MORE HAHAHAHA! MY LOVE IS PRECIOUS!

TAG REPLIED!

weilin: hell boy? meaning? lol!

jiali: sorry lah!

audrey: AUDREY ALSO THE BEST YEAH! BROTHER!

azimah: i shy mah! haha dun like that lah

mavis: ok thanks! and try lo

kuanyun : YEAH 加油 I WILL!

marvin deycan: hahaha! hope so! sakae k!

NO MORE CIGG!

2009-08-19T08:17:00.000-07:00

took this picture from azimah's blog haha! kapok!

cannot take this kinda stuff anymore huh azimah!

waste money

waste time

waste everything.

i promised almost everyone huh!?

azimah

sherilyn

marvin

weilin(i think)

my cousins

dayna

still got who? NAME IT YOURSELF BABE AND DUDES!

have been thinking this few days, 3 THINGS!

1st thing:

what have i done wrong to make you do this to me and people around you? will you just at least give a reason why? why will our relation got into this stage?

its not like tat last time..

thigns change, because you changed.

unable to communicate with you anymore

unable to share things with you anymore

unable to get advice from you anymore because why?

a simple reason

YOU'VE CHANGED INTO A BLOODY IDIOT!

2nd thing:

why do i forever have to wait for what i want

i dont understand.

love is like a fcuking thing which make you have headache every moment.

I RATHER LOVE WEILIN!

no stress at all oh please.

so innocent

so nice

so cute

so smart.

studies no good? she teach

lack of love? she give you

no one to talk to? she talks to you and listens to all you wanna say

no one accompany you? she ENTERTAIN YOU!

nice right?

3rd thing:

i dont wanna wait anymore.

there is no chance.

no matter how long i wait.

there will be no ending

it will still be like this.

right WEILIN?

things are all stupid

what i can do now is just bloody concentrate on my stupid studies!

STUPID CHEMISTRY

STUPID CHINESE!

加油，卓恩琦！

today..

2009-08-19T02:33:00.001-07:00

i think its like so long since i have a blog and to update right? i think all of you miss it! but thanks to those people who force me t create huh! ahhahas

at night studying just now with marvin. and we did not strike 4D and now i realise who is my lucky charm man, and i am so gonna love her! serious that little lady named JOEY THAM!

JOEY THAM!